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Trying to sort my feelings and thoughts and this drawing of a masked person came out. It actually looks like Bruce's girlfriend now that I've draw it - me wearing a mask of her. Not what I intended when I first drew it but now that is what it looks like. I find art therapy fascinating - it is like seeing dreams that come out of another area of our unconscious.

I can see that physically I'm slipping - my heart was pounding a lot of the time yesterday. Drinking coffee probably didn't help. Today after my morning coffee I'm switching to tea and decaf drinks. The visual migraine last night is a major alert to me that I am repressing emotions. I want to just be calm and accepting and hopeful. That is my goal but I'm not there.

The dawning is beautiful outside my window. Pale pearly fog. Pink sky. Frost on the grass.

I hope Dave and I can take Andy for a run today. Rainbow Rocks would be nice - or somewhere like that. It would be nice to SEE things and take note of nature, expend energy in a good way and get out of my head.

Date: 2017-04-02 02:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
when i was diagnosed w/that big mass and told what to expect, i started having high blood pressure and all kinds of anxiety for a while. i asked my first doc for a scrip for "something" because i didn't feel that kind of stress would be helpful. they gave me clonazepam. as it turned out, i managed to find my own internal balance and well ... you know i love the red wine, ha ha! ... so i didn't take it except for the night before surgery. but it could be helpful to have around for anxious emergencies. don't be shy about asking. and keep taking your walks outside and your art and just being present. you'll be FINE. i just know.

Date: 2017-04-02 02:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I've done collages for art therapy but, I'll have to try what you do. I think it would help.

Hope you get to go for a nice walk today.

Date: 2017-04-02 03:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hope you can find a distraction! *hugs*

Date: 2017-04-03 09:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Getting out in nature sure helps me and I hope it helps you, too.

You may be wearing a mask. You said in your last post, I think, that you were holding your emotions in.

I have the odd heart palpitation for no particular reason, but I think your's might be stress related.

Date: 2017-04-03 02:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You get to feel what you feel. <3


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