Apr. 13th, 2017 07:48 am
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I see a tree that has been damaged, splitting, cracking apart but still alive and bursting with life. Spring is happening.

I had a headache most of yesterday and felt fuzzy. My tinnitus was extra loud. But in it's own way it was a good day with lots of talking to friends, lots of crying, which was just what I needed. Getting used to life as it is. Hazel drove me to the store for some shopping and carried the groceries in for me. I made progress on the crocheted baby blanket. Watched episodes of Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt - good silliness. Dave swept off the front porch and back porch and made them nice. He mowed the back yard for the first time this year too. I ate my supper out back at the picnic table. We (Dave and I, Hazel and Rossy) walked Andy down to the creek and threw his ball with the ball thrower in the lower yard. Hazel has got a great throwing arm - I think cause she is so tall - and Andy got a really good work out. He loves to chase the ball.

Tomorrow Johnny and Alison and Chloe and Mike are coming for a visit. Chloe wants me to show her some new hiking trails where she can take her ARC clients. I think we will show her the trail to Rainbow Rocks - it will be a relatively easy walk that her clients can handle. Mike and Dave are going fishing.

It looks like it's going to be a beautiful day today. I have a big pot with a passionflower vine in it. I might have killed it with neglect over the winter but I want to get it planted outside soon - there might still be hope for it. I won't be able to lift it myself but I bet I can get a grandkid to help me. I am not very good with most houseplants, except succulents. I think the passionflower will have better luck outside, even with our winters - they can withstand some freezing.

I have had a dreamwidth account since 2010 but I only use it to back up my LJ now and then and never post there. The last time I backed it up was in 2012 but I am backing it up today. I have a different name there: Summersgate. I don't want to leave LJ and don't plan to leave but just in case something happens to LJ I will be covered. I will still be posting my entries on LJ.

Date: 2017-04-13 12:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
i'm glad today is a better day for you. and that you got a little crying in. (-; it's hard when you are used to being independent and caring for others, to feel your body invaded and have to give up your regular ways. that was one of the hardest things for me after surgery, feeling so vulnerable and dependent and letting others help and even ... asking for help. but that's what you need now, just to rest and recover and let others care for you, which it sounds like they are awesome at. in no time, you will be back to yourself, possibly quite better - even if you do require further treatment

i think often the medical folks try to prepare you for what might be necessary, even though they seemingly don't tell you other important things to expect. like i really didn't appreciate being told right before going into surgery that i might be coming out with a colostomy!!! (that was a worst case scenario depending on what they found). i almost left. and they didn't tell me at all about the kind of terrifying GI issues that would arise.

onward ... to good health and a long happy life. xox!

Date: 2017-04-13 01:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I find myself trying to read between the lines - search out body language in the health care workers. What do they really mean? Do they know more than they are saying and can I decipher it from little clues? What can I trust - their exact words or my intuition? I do know they are trying to help and I am very thankful for them! I just wish I could know everything right now.


Date: 2017-04-13 02:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Your post just explodes with hope! Makes me feel warm and good inside.... like coming out the other side of the tunnel and finally into the light. Your drawing today and especially the words you used to describe it, it is YOU!

Date: 2017-04-13 03:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ha - don't know if I am actually exploding with hope but I'm getting more used to the situation - it has gone down to a lower level of fear. Better to seek out good vibes.

Date: 2017-04-13 03:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Well, maybe exploding wasn't the right word, but your post to me is hope.... and getting back to normal, happy and routine things. Having something to look forward to....

Date: 2017-04-14 08:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Just looking at your art I can tell you're feeling better. Lots of talking to friends and lots of crying is good. I think your tinnitus and headache will go away as you get better.

Aaaw...what a lovely granddaughter Hazel was to carry your groceries!

And so nice of Dave to sweep the front and back porches and do the mowing so the place looked nice.

I have never kept a passionfruit inside. I didn't know you could do that. Here, I just leave them outside :)

Good to know you have a dreamwidth backup. I kept a note of that. I'm also very glad you're staying with lj!

Enjoy your day with Chloe tomorrow. I bet Dave has fun with Mike, too.


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