ace of cups

Apr. 6th, 2017 07:23 am
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The ace of cups, beginning of emotion, the start of feeling, the sprouting of compassion, breaking through of love, an offering of heightened affection. My meditation reading this morning was on self-love and I was thinking about how we hear all the time that we have to love ourselves before we can love others. If I can't forgive myself (a person who I know intimately) then how can I expect to forgive others? We all need forgiven together.

I feel like the news I got at the oncologist yesterday was "good news". If a person has to have breast cancer then I've got the best kind. It's small, it can be helped with hormone therapy and so far it appears not to have spread to the lymph glands - they will know more about that after the operation. I'm active and pretty healthy to start with and it might be a good thing that I'm a little overweight - the loss of some breast tissue won't be as noticeable. The operation is this coming Monday. I will have 3 weeks to heal from that before I start the radiation. Radiation will happen 5 days a week (Monday through Friday) for 4 to 6 weeks. Then I will start hormone therapy - taking a pill once a day for 5 years.

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Something I want to do - start writing my food down as I eat it - just to be more aware. For a while there I lost my appetite and when I did eat I wasn't eating very much but the food I was eating wasn't very good for me - too much sweets and high in fat. I want to make a little book that I can carry with me to keep track of my food. But then I think I will need to make a little crocheted bag to carry it - so now this has become an arts/crafts project too.

I don't understand why everyone is so upset that LJ has asked us to sign a new user agreement. Everywhere you go you have to sign user agreements. And then as years go by you have to re-sign them. Maybe I'm missing something but I don't understand what the big problem is. I'm not going anywhere. I wish others weren't. I like to read the people on my friend's list and I don't want to have to go to multiple other places to do that - I won't go to multiple blogging platforms to read - I'm too lazy to do that. I certainly won't go to FB to do my writing - what I like to write about isn't appropriate for that place. Oh well...
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Have you ever had it happen to you where the more you work on an art project the dumber it seems? But I have put too much time into this to abandon it now - need to see it through. I painted all the faces - 20 in all. Here they are laid out in what I think will be the final order before gluing them into place. )

Snowing right now - big flakes - so pretty. Dave and I thought about driving over to see Chloe and Johnny today and taking Andy for a walk in the game lands but now it doesn't seem like a very good idea with roads being bad. Will probably walk to the creek with Andy at least.
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I am willing to be just another human being today - no better and no worse - just another.

It's funny how time passes differently when you are drawing. I'm measuring my time with candles now as I do my morning meditations and when I am reading and writing time goes slowly - I look up and the candle has barely gone down. But once I start to draw my picture outer time speeds up and when I look up again when I'm done the candle's always gone.

I'm still messing around with my old LJ's from years past. Collecting the info using Blogbooker but then after I get it I'm working on it in Word and reducing the size of the photos and changing some text as I'm getting it ready for printing later. But it's not going well. It seems that my laptop can't handle all this info. Keeps crashing. Johnny looked at it last night and recommends that I get a bigger hard drive since my old one (500GB) is nearly topped off. That will arrive next Tuesday. If that isn't the problem then I could try to install a new Word program. My version is very old - it came with Office 2000. I looked at the new version in Johnny's computer and it looks confusing and I'm sure I would have a hard time learning it but if that's what needs done I'm willing to do it. Doing stuff like this - fooling around with writing and pictures and being able to print things is what I love to do.

Today the plan is to meet Karen for lunch, then later come home and get Johnny and we are going out to Jo-Ann's and get some fabric adhesive for some chairs he wants to fix. Also I want to keep in mind that I have 2 jobs to do - a keyring/pendant for MnH, and a handmade book for a repeat customer. This customer wants me to make her a new journal book every year. I don't tell her that I'm really not doing handmade books anymore and just get out the stuff and do it. Sometimes I have to search the basement a while to find the materials for it.

The sun just now broke through the clouds - looks like it's going to be a dry day today. I hope.

sunday

Sep. 4th, 2016 08:01 am
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After I wrote my entry here at 7 last night I went to bed - just felt exhausted. Slept all night. Made me wonder if I had been exposed to something - some germ - yesterday that I was fighting off. Dave felt very tired for the first couple days that he had the shingles - before we found out that he had shingles. I don't think I have shingles but I do believe there are all kinds of viruses and germs we are fighting off all the time and we don't even know what they are because we have no other symptoms than the tiredness we have from fighting them off or maybe a headache or something we can't figure out.

Dreamed this morning that I was living in my parent's old house next door with my little sister - our parents had passed on. I suddenly got the idea that I wanted to bring my brother John home from the rehab center/nursing home that he was living in. It was really far away and would take many hours to drive and get him. My sister was glad to go along and we were getting dressed and ready to go but then I remembered that we didn't have a wheelchair van anymore so there was no way to get him. Woke up sad.

Not sure who my "little sister" was in the dream. She was similar to Chloe, my daughter. Chloe is entering an art show called Heal: An Exhibition on the Journey of Healing in Oil City this weekend. She and her friend Kiyomi who is the curator were trying to get me to enter something. I thought at first I might be able to make a new artwork for it but I just didn't feel inspired. Yesterday Chloe texted me encouraging me again. So I am going to see if any of my jewelry pendants would be appropriate. Some are on the theme of healing I think. Kiyomi will be coming to a birthday party we will be having here tomorrow for Dave and Jules. I will see if she thinks that would work. Or I could clean off my art table today and see if there is anything inside me on the spur of the moment. Hmm - I just now thought of the collage book I made after John died. That might be very appropriate! Thank you John for (possibly) sending the dream.

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The book "Returning to Our Mother's Arms" and Milo. Random pictures from inside the book HERE )
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"G8" earrings - sterling and faceted "peridot" spinel doublets Listing HERE

Such a wonderfully foggy morning this morning - headlights twinkling brighter and brighter as they approach. I had to get up extra early to drive Jules to work cause his car is in the shop today. Then the fog broke and it turned into a blue sky day with puffy white clouds. A welcome change from the overcast and rain we have been having. The air just feels drier (and the basement less oppressive). I walked with Berdella at Wilhelm this morning. The air felt invigorating. I have decided I want to take less photos and make more "notes" of my day - and quick sketches. So many things to notice. A little goldfinch right in front of my eyes at the moment hanging upside down on the feeder. But of course (being me) I need to have a special small sketch book to do this in. I've been thinking about it a lot. Maybe make one that I can wear on a cord around my neck? Pencil or pen? Elastic closure? I love designing things.
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Finished the wedding book just now. Now to wrap it up and set things up for delivery.
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Tomorrow evening I'm supposed to go to Clarion to The ARC where Chloe is activities director and give a mini workshop on bookmaking. Her clients have special needs but have differing levels of ability so I need to make one of the projects very easy and then have something that could be challenging for those who can do more. I came up with 5 different simple books that they can make. We are going to start with the biggest journal style 24 page book (underneath, in the middle of the photo) and then do one of the valentine books and if we have time I'll show them how to do the others.

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I haven't made a book in quite a while but there is just something about folding paper, cutting paper, gluing, sewing and creating a BOOK that is so neat. I have always loved paper crafts since I was a little kid. Anyway, I'm excited to get to see Chloe's clients - she loves them all and I will enjoy meeting them since I have heard so much about them.

My ability to read comments and reply on my own LJ has mysteriously returned this morning! Going to go back and catch up now.

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Oct. 17th, 2014 11:53 am
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"Green Light" pendant - sterling, sea glass, gaspeite, nephrite jade, malachite Listing HERE

This is one of those pendants that I designed years ago - cut out the silver pieces, picked out the stones, made the bezels but never put it together. The parts all sat in my ice cube tray holding area since before we moved next door in 2007. I found it in my design book and confirmed where the stones and cut "foliage" were supposed to go. Maybe not the style that I would be doing now but it needed to be made sometime.

This morning I got an idea for an art project. I seem to do well with "one a day" projects. I don't have the energy to do *big* art like I wish I would. I put my creative energy into jewelry making and there doesn't seem to be much left over for "expressing myself" so I got the idea that I would make a Self Portrait A Day book and make one simple self portrait every day. I'm making the rules very easy. It can be a photo that I can glue into the book, a drawing, a painting, a collage. It can be as simple as a circle with 2 dots for eyes and a line for a frown if I want. It can be a blob of paint. But it needs to express me for that day. It doesn't have to be a face - it can be a hand, a body part, a shoe, an animal that I feel like, a thing that I feel like. Now all that makes me excited and I can't wait to start - except - that I have decided that the first day would be the cover of the book. Now I have artist's block cause I want the cover to express ALL of me - the REAL me. I think I need to let go of that and just get on with Day One. I will probably be posting some of the self portraits here on LJ as time goes on.

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The blank canvas! Size 8" by 6". 364 actual pages.
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14 pages for 14 days

One of the problems I thought I had was figuring out what kind of journal book to take. I wanted to take my Everything Book cause that is what I do my daily writings in and keep track of everything with but it is so huge. If I used a smaller journal then all the information in it would get "lost" and not be kept in order with the everything book. So I thought why not make individual pages that I can take along and then when I get back I will tuck them into the big book. Last night I collaged and colored 14 pages (for 14 days) and every day I can draw and write on one. Or keeping using one till it is filled and then move on to the next one. That is another "problem" I need to solve - I need to make a decision how to use them (my problems seem so silly really).

An individual page (or 2) can be folded so I can fit it into my purse and be available to take along in the day. I tried it out with all 14 pages tucked in and it really doesn't make the big book that much more overstuffed. It already bulges.

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I cut them a little bit smaller than the pages of the big book so they will tuck in better later.

So another "packing problem" solved.

Today we meet with the lawyer to start the ball rolling for Jules to purchase mom and dad's house. It is raining. Yesterday we heard thunder! All the snow that was packed down from walking on it and driving over it in the yard and driveway has turned to slick ice. Dangerous out there. And wet. The ground is frozen so it's not taking the rain in - it just lays on top.
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Before (and hopefully later - there will be an after):

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In order to get back into enameling (to make the enameled heart for Johnny's pendant) I need to get this table and area cleaned off and organized - baa! So that is my first job for today. Then I need to get to town later to mail some things (thanks Deborah for your purchase!)

And as long as I am showing "before" shots of messes here is my ceramics table - I need to clear this off too so I can make ceramic elements for my mosaic table. It seems like I just move one mess to a new spot when I clean up around here and this has been a catchall for a long time.

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Oh wait, as a closing - here is one thing that looks orderly in my studio - a stack of book covers ready to be made into future books:

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I made these while sitting at the kitchen table recently catching up on Glee, Long Island Medium, 30 Rock, The Office, Parks and Recreation, New Girl, Modern Family, Once Upon a Time, Big Bang Theory and The Mentalist - now you know my guilty TV pleasures.

my day

Nov. 19th, 2012 09:24 pm
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Actually what I did a lot of today was watch TV - I finished up watching all of last year's "Once Upon a Time" which were still waiting on the DVR and started the first one of this season. I did crazy dance exercise during the commercials (not every one, most of them I fast-forwarded through, but many) and I sewed 2 books together. These books are going to Chloe and her boyfriend Mike on Thursday. We will be celebrating Chloe's birthday (age 25) on Thanksgiving Day and this is one thing she asked for. They will be leaving soon after that on an adventure trip with a camper, driving south and then in the spring going west.

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The one on the right is Chloe's. They each picked out the wallpaper that they wanted me to use for the cover of their journal.

The plan is that they will write about and illustrate their trip as they go. I'm happy that she will be having this adventure - there will never be a better time. But probably part of my depression is getting ready to say goodbye to Chloe. I'm having empty nest syndrome big time. Though Chloe hasn't lived at home since the spring, just knowing she was only 30 minutes away was comforting. Soon she will be days and days away and we might not see her again for many months.

Dave and I went grocery shopping tonight to get Thanksgiving stuff. I'm glad that we are becoming a couple that does things together. Before we didn't (except for "Date Night") - usually one or the other of us had to stay home with mom but now we both get to do mundane things like shopping or driving places together. It's nice.

And finally here is my listing for the day - I made this a few years ago:

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"Persephone's Roots" - listing HERE
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harlequin glass ring, enamel, glass and stone dragonfly and purple handmade book

Jill came today so I had time to get some things finished. The ring is for one of the social workers that has been coming from hospice - she was interested in my jewelry making and looked though all my things - decided she wanted this special ring made in her size. The purple book is a special order too and the dragonfly will eventually get listed on etsy. I also got out to Art Group - took Gabe and Rossy with me. We walked down to Berdella's woods so I could show them the neat swings that Don had made - they had fun swinging for a while - I'm sure they had never been on a swing before with such a long rope or chain. Then we went to the ice cream shop on 173 and had sandwiches and baby cones. I didn't have much money on me but we watched every penny and got a good lunch.
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morning mess kitchen counter

It seems so decadent and silly but lately I have been on the search for a better cup of coffee. Everyone (?) seems to agree that using a french press is the way to go. I got one earlier in the month with a glass carafe but it broke within 2 weeks so this time I spent twice as much and got an all stainless thermal one - I think I officially love it, though this morning is my first time using it. I like the thermal feature and it will be nice to not have to worry about breakage. It makes 8 cups so I can even serve company if need be. I only made 2 cups today for me.

I have been writing so much and drawing so much in my everything book lately. I wish I had the energy or inspiration to copy some stuff over here to LJ to share but it seems that after it's written once and said I don't feel the need to write it again (most the time). This online journal might be more interesting reading if I did all my ruminating here instead of there.

I'm going to have a really busy day today - I got an order for a book with purple pages and lavender handmade paper covers. I don't have any handmade paper left at all so I need to make paper today. The problem is that making paper takes over the whole kitchen and takes all day. This is the perfect day to do it though. Dave and Johnny left to go camping with Dave's brothers at the Clarion River yesterday and the grandkids are all at their mom's this weekend so I have the whole house to myself (with mom) today.

Second cup - still hot!

Must get started with my day - clean the kitchen so I can fill it up with paper making mess and get mom up for morning drinks...
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everything book #4 corner

I finished gluing in pictures and painting pages last night - not a day too soon as I am on the last page of #3 today. I made this book much looser in format - no white rectangles with clearly defined edges to draw in this time - only a lighter area in the middle of one page to use for unobstructed drawing. Some photos - HERE )
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everything book #4 corner

I finished gluing in pictures and painting pages last night - not a day too soon as I am on the last page of #3 today. I made this book much looser in format - no white rectangles with clearly defined edges to draw in this time - only a lighter area in the middle of one page to use for unobstructed drawing. Some photos - HERE )

monday

Aug. 1st, 2011 06:04 pm
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wedding guest book detail

Finished the commissioned book late last night. It turned out nice but it was a lot of mental aggravation to me (my own problem not the customers - she was very nice - I just have a problem with commissions and trying to get things more than perfect, not knowing exactly what the customer has in mind). I'm glad to be done so I can move on to some other projects now. I want to get immersed in jewelry for a while.

I got a new pair of sandals this morning. Remember the old water buffalo sandals of the 60's and 70's? They seemed comfortable to me at the time and they were thong style. I want to get my toes used to wearing flip flops (thong sandals) again. So I soaked my water buffalo sandals real good (to soften them) early this morning and have been wearing them since then - so far so good. They aren't nearly as comfortable as my old black plastic sandals but I'm afraid it is time to move on - I got about 3 years use from them.


i love all the intricate details on the leather sandals
(notice the old black ones have actually worn clear through at the big toe, and stretched to accommodate my bunion - farewell my old friends)

monday

Aug. 1st, 2011 06:04 pm
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wedding guest book detail

Finished the commissioned book late last night. It turned out nice but it was a lot of mental aggravation to me (my own problem not the customers - she was very nice - I just have a problem with commissions and trying to get things more than perfect, not knowing exactly what the customer has in mind). I'm glad to be done so I can move on to some other projects now. I want to get immersed in jewelry for a while.

I got a new pair of sandals this morning. Remember the old water buffalo sandals of the 60's and 70's? They seemed comfortable to me at the time and they were thong style. I want to get my toes used to wearing flip flops (thong sandals) again. So I soaked my water buffalo sandals real good (to soften them) early this morning and have been wearing them since then - so far so good. They aren't nearly as comfortable as my old black plastic sandals but I'm afraid it is time to move on - I got about 3 years use from them.


i love all the intricate details on the leather sandals
(notice the old black ones have actually worn clear through at the big toe, and stretched to accommodate my bunion - farewell my old friends)
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Went outside early this morning to do my morning writing and meditations and it was still cool. We are having a muggy heat wave right now. Thank goodness we have an air conditioner. It's just a small one in one room but if you are near the air conditioner it's nice and the rest of the house is tolerable, especially since I run it all night and the humidity in here is kept low.

Today is Gabriel's birthday - 13 years old. As a special thing he got to stay home with me instead of going to the child care center. He and Chloe just got back from shopping for the food for his party and she got him an ice cream cake.

The papers arrived today for the wedding guest book so I can get started on that. The book will be wider than it is tall so it will be using longer pieces of paper than I usually use. I won't be able to make handmade flower and thread paper for the cover (too bad - it would be pretty - but my paper mold isn't big enough) so I will make paste paper for the cover - she's ok with that.

Onward...
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front door seat 6 more - HERE )

Went outside early this morning to do my morning writing and meditations and it was still cool. We are having a muggy heat wave right now. Thank goodness we have an air conditioner. It's just a small one in one room but if you are near the air conditioner it's nice and the rest of the house is tolerable, especially since I run it all night and the humidity in here is kept low.

Today is Gabriel's birthday - 13 years old. As a special thing he got to stay home with me instead of going to the child care center. He and Chloe just got back from shopping for the food for his party and she got him an ice cream cake.

The papers arrived today for the wedding guest book so I can get started on that. The book will be wider than it is tall so it will be using longer pieces of paper than I usually use. I won't be able to make handmade flower and thread paper for the cover (too bad - it would be pretty - but my paper mold isn't big enough) so I will make paste paper for the cover - she's ok with that.

Onward...
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paddle boats

Yesterday I had the grandkids for the day and we went to Two Mile Run park for swimming and paddle-boating. Chloe went along too - she is in the front of the other boat. The kids had a great time and I promised I would take them back. Nice day and I got a little suntan too.

But now I need to get busy and get some artsy things made. More - HERE )

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