ace of cups

Apr. 6th, 2017 07:23 am
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4-6-17-ace-of-cups-yellow-b
The ace of cups, beginning of emotion, the start of feeling, the sprouting of compassion, breaking through of love, an offering of heightened affection. My meditation reading this morning was on self-love and I was thinking about how we hear all the time that we have to love ourselves before we can love others. If I can't forgive myself (a person who I know intimately) then how can I expect to forgive others? We all need forgiven together.

I feel like the news I got at the oncologist yesterday was "good news". If a person has to have breast cancer then I've got the best kind. It's small, it can be helped with hormone therapy and so far it appears not to have spread to the lymph glands - they will know more about that after the operation. I'm active and pretty healthy to start with and it might be a good thing that I'm a little overweight - the loss of some breast tissue won't be as noticeable. The operation is this coming Monday. I will have 3 weeks to heal from that before I start the radiation. Radiation will happen 5 days a week (Monday through Friday) for 4 to 6 weeks. Then I will start hormone therapy - taking a pill once a day for 5 years.

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Something I want to do - start writing my food down as I eat it - just to be more aware. For a while there I lost my appetite and when I did eat I wasn't eating very much but the food I was eating wasn't very good for me - too much sweets and high in fat. I want to make a little book that I can carry with me to keep track of my food. But then I think I will need to make a little crocheted bag to carry it - so now this has become an arts/crafts project too.

I don't understand why everyone is so upset that LJ has asked us to sign a new user agreement. Everywhere you go you have to sign user agreements. And then as years go by you have to re-sign them. Maybe I'm missing something but I don't understand what the big problem is. I'm not going anywhere. I wish others weren't. I like to read the people on my friend's list and I don't want to have to go to multiple other places to do that - I won't go to multiple blogging platforms to read - I'm too lazy to do that. I certainly won't go to FB to do my writing - what I like to write about isn't appropriate for that place. Oh well...
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4-2-17-mask-6inch
Trying to sort my feelings and thoughts and this drawing of a masked person came out. It actually looks like Bruce's girlfriend now that I've draw it - me wearing a mask of her. Not what I intended when I first drew it but now that is what it looks like. I find art therapy fascinating - it is like seeing dreams that come out of another area of our unconscious.

I can see that physically I'm slipping - my heart was pounding a lot of the time yesterday. Drinking coffee probably didn't help. Today after my morning coffee I'm switching to tea and decaf drinks. The visual migraine last night is a major alert to me that I am repressing emotions. I want to just be calm and accepting and hopeful. That is my goal but I'm not there.

The dawning is beautiful outside my window. Pale pearly fog. Pink sky. Frost on the grass.

I hope Dave and I can take Andy for a run today. Rainbow Rocks would be nice - or somewhere like that. It would be nice to SEE things and take note of nature, expend energy in a good way and get out of my head.

morph

Feb. 5th, 2017 11:43 am
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Just a sketch this morning of a pattern I saw. It was from a piece of cloth that had peace signs on it but I couldn't help seeing a distressed face there instead.

On another subject - I saw this etsy artist and love her work. I want to find a way to use fabric as a collage element somewhat the way she does. Fabric prints are so rich in color and texture. Golden Soft Gel Matte Medium is a wonderful thing - I think I will try painting the cloth with that first to stabilize it (so it won't fray when it is cut) and then cut it to shape after that. See if that will work.

Other than that - no real plans for the day. I have a ring that someone wants me to fix (the turquoise stones are crumbling) which I have been avoiding. But I bought the 5 minute epoxy for that yesterday and have no reason to not proceed.

I think I am getting burned out with all the requests I get to be active - to write letters, share things on facebook (not going to do that), sign petitions, call people. Maybe if I could just choose one cause to concentrate on and shut all the others out? Everyday, all day long I am getting emails telling me I should do something or other. They are all good causes! But I wouldn't have time to live my own life if I did them all - it would keep me busy all day long - plus, I imagine I would start to get even more requests for action if I did that. I feel like this is what Trump wants - to wear us down on all the fronts he is making his stupid rulings on. Though I haven't really done much except sign petitions at this point. It is the constant requests (for urgent action!!!) that makes me want to just skip them all. Then I feel bad. I need to do something - resolve my desire to be of help with how much help I can realistically give. As it is now I am just running away while throwing a few petition signings at them. This is what made me shut down during the time of the election - so many requests from the democrats to DO SOMETHING. I shut down at that time too, finally, and turned off all the emails I was getting from them. Dave is lucky - we share an email address but I act as our secretary and send only the things he needs to deal with over to his box. He never has to see all this stuff. But he is the one who reads the news online and other places. He is exposed to all that. I can't take it.
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Good morning Christmas Eve Day. It'll be a busy day today. First we will go over and watch the grandkids open the presents they are getting from their dad, then Johnny and I will go shopping, there will be foods that need fixed and cleaning to be done, dinner for the family tonight and present opening again. Then the grandkids will be heading off to their mom's house for the rest of the weekend. Actual Christmas Day (Sunday) will be rather dull I imagine. Holiday weekends can get me all mixed up as to what day it is. This year it might be good with the holidays happening on Saturday and Sunday.

12-24-16-honors-freindship
Today's drawing. Taken from a small detail in the "#49 Honors" card in the Dream Inspiration deck. Lots of other confusing stuff going on in the image but these 2 hands clasped in trust seemed to be a good thing to concentrate on.

I got some beautiful yarn yesterday called Red Heart Unforgettable in the Polo color:
red-heart-unforgettable-polo
I want to make a granny square blanket with it and give it to Chloe as a gift. The colors remind me of her. As the yarn works up it is supposed to be self color changing and I won't have to stop to tie in new colors all the time like regular granny squares. Then after I see how that goes I'd like to make a blanket for Johnny in the Dragonfly color:
dragonfly unforgettable yarn
That should keep me busy for quite a while in the coming year.

up at 5 am

Dec. 23rd, 2016 07:19 am
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Getting up at 5 isn't that odd for me really. I think I have started Old People Sleeplessness. Or maybe it should be called Old People Short Sleep Cycle. I only need a few hours of sleep in the night and then I am ready to go again.

12-23-16-Five-of-Air-Vision-Quest-tarot
The card from the Vision Quest tarot deck I was looking at said the word "fear" - I chose to write "let go of fear". I have many fears, if I chose to think of them. Or I can have no fear if I stay in this present moment.

I made crocheted snowflakes (stars and 6 pointed stars) yesterday. I thought I don't really want to climb up into the attic and get out the Christmas decorations - instead I will just make some new ones and hang them on our indoor Norfolk Island pine. Here's a primsa app version photo I took of it last night:

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Those red ribbons in the center came as decorations on rawhide dog chews that we got for Andy. They were huge - about 2 feet long and made up as Christmas presents to give your dog. I bought a bunch of them cause that is the only way to get rawhide chews that large. Andy loves them and prances around the house with them for about 15 minutes before he even starts to chew. He also lays them on the ground and makes love to them, rubbing on them before he starts chewing, manipulating them with his paws, flopping himself all around on them. He is a real chewer and I think we are very fortunate that we have got this far with him only ruining one pair of my shoes - but we keep him well supplied with toys, nylabones, stuffed kongs and rawhide.

I might try and get another photo of the tree in good light today. I like the snowflake/stars a lot and might make bigger more elaborate ones today to hang other places. I have become a "crafty person".

sunday

Dec. 11th, 2016 09:24 am
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12-11-16-8-of-swords-Quest
Inspired by the Quest tarot. The Quest tarot was my very first tarot and it is one of my least liked. It is all robotic and slick and the pips aren't illustrated with stories - just geometric arrangements of cups, wands, stones and swords with a word to describe the card. So I just tried to illustrate "interference" like the word on the card said. Here is the regular version of the 8 of Swords:

12-11-16-8ofswords
I like this much better cause I am a more visual and emotional person - I like to make up my own stories or see things as a story.

So today I shall guard against feeling confined, unaware and without choices. Or being bothered by annoying interference blasting through my well-knit world.

Still snowing. Though the build up isn't that high - only about 5 inches (so far). Dave and I are going to take Andy for a walk to the creek for sure.

I made a big pot of chili yesterday but I didn't have any green peppers! I think I will get some today to add to it and fix it up. More celery and onions too. Maybe get some good bread to go with it too - or make corn bread - yeah.

thursday

Dec. 8th, 2016 10:22 am
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12-8-16-seven-of-cups
Inspired by the Seven of Cups in the Thoth tarot. That card has the word "debauch" on it and is very busy with 7 flowers dripping into seven cups and they are all overflowing into a pool of water all broken up with drops falling into it. My interpretation of my feelings today is not that.

Yesterday morning I found out that I had a message on my phone from the day before. My cousin Helen's son had called to tell me that Helen wasn't doing well and she was nearing the end. I went to the nursing home to see her and found that she was as he said - unresponsive. Though I thought I did see some glimmerings of responsive when I told her I was there. It looked like her lips were dry and I got a little sponge on a stick and gave her some water with it - she sucked the water and licked her lips - so I know a bit of her consciousness was working. Her eyes never opened though. I was alone the whole time and at one point I thought I would look into her journal that was on the bedside stand. Back when she was still living in her own home she had showed me her journal so I thought she wouldn't mind. It was mainly all gibberish - made no sense. Though she had told me back then that she used code to write about certain people so they wouldn't be able to read what she was writing about them. So I don't know if this was her code or if she really was losing the ability to put thoughts together in these last months. The word "no" was used a lot. But one sentence at the top of a page separated from the gibberish words was very plain: SO - I AM STILL ON THIS EARTH!

Helen didn't like her roommate much - I already knew that. I could hear the roommate out in the hall begging someone to help me, help me, help me in a horrible whiny voice. I went out to check and she wanted someone to push her into the room. I said, okay, I can help you. Right then Helen let out a big yell and started to scream so I said to the roommate - sorry - I need to help Helen now and left her. As soon as Helen heard I was not going to bring the roommate in she calmed down. So I do think she has some consciousness - just not the ability to do very much with it - she is getting farther away now. But she knew she didn't want her serenity ruined by this whiny, constantly complaining self-centered woman. That is one thing about dying in a nursing home rather than your own home. Not nice.

Anyway.

I had a dream last night that I had fixed up my goat shed anew with couches, chairs, tables and beds - shelves on the walls to put art and trinkets and I built a big fireplace in the far wall. It was much bigger than before. I had invited people over for a get-together and it was really nice. But then, I found out that the goats were still alive and needed a home. I had no choice but try and make them welcome there. They were pooping all over and getting into things. I was cleaning out an old bucket that I had planted flowers in to make a water bucket for them. The goats weren't in very good shape and Gretta Goat had a sore on her head - I was wondering what kind of salve I had to put on it. I was up in the house when someone yelled, "There's a fire in the goatshed!" so I ran down to see. There really wasn't any danger - it was just a fire in the fireplace. But it was very hot in there and candles and things like that were melting. I stayed with it to make sure everything was okay till the fire died down. End of dream.

I have no idea where that dream came from or what it means.

endurance

Dec. 4th, 2016 06:46 am
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12-4-16-endurance-five-of-stones
Inspired by the Five of Stones from the Wildwood tarot. I guess it means that I have to wait out the long night - take some comfort in the spot of warmth in front of me.

Woke up at 4 am (again). Start the coffee pot, feed the cats their wet food, get my coffee and come to my room to sit at my table burning birthday candles and thinking/writing/drawing.

Dreamed last night that I was going out to dinner with Nancy (it was nighttime in the dream) and she was trying out a new wheelchair - it was electric. The sidewalks were icy and it started sliding - I was trying to hang onto it and put my feet on the back of it but my weight was making it go even more out of control. We were laughing but there was a danger of it going farther down a hill and into the woods. I got off and the slide stopped. She was driving back up the hill again but then she dropped the controller (it was like a TV controller). It flew up into the air and came back to her but she wasn't ready to catch it and it fell again. Then it flew up again, like a little fluttering bird. That was how it was designed - that if the person in the wheelchair was to drop it then it would find its way back to them. It kept fluttering back to her and bouncing off cause she wasn't ready to catch it. We laughed and laughed till finally she caught it - end of dream.

Dave went to bed early last night and I watched a couple episodes of Lost. I love that show. It seems so deep and many layered to me. I'm wondering if watching TV before bed (that show in particular) has anything to do with the wheelchair controller in the dream being like a TV remote control?

Dave shot a buck yesterday. There will be meat for him in the freezer this coming year. Maybe I will see a little more of him now.

I got the new torch yesterday and hooked it up to my old tank of mapp gas and it didn't work either. So I tried the new torch on a new tank and it worked. Then I tried my old torch on a new tank of gas and it worked too. So something was wrong with the tank - not the torch. The old tank is full of gas - you can feel it sloshing around in there so that isn't the problem - it must have an obstruction of some sort. That was stupid of me that I didn't try that first before I gave up and thought I needed a new torch. Well, anyway - maybe I will like this new torch too - it has an automatic lighter built into it.
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12-2-16-six-of-wands
Inspired by the Six of Wands from the Transformational Tarot deck. The original card had a sexy female figure (Lady Godiva) riding a horse - mine looks more like a child on a pony (or maybe even a dog - the neck is too short for a horse - me riding Andy right now?). They say everything we write about and all our art is really about us so that would make sense - I am more of a child inside than a sexy woman. The six of wands is usually a card of victory, recognition and reward. I am a child in that way too - it's hard to accept compliments. Maybe today will be a day to be more humble - which actually would mean I would be more ready to accept recognition. Being excessively shy is not really being humble. The figure in the drawing is naked. Can't be shy if you are naked.

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I have over 40 tarot decks - I must be a collector. This drawing exercise I have been doing lately is an attempt to actually get some use from all those decks. I open a different deck each day (I keep most of them in bags so I can't tell which is which - it's a surprise each day) and choose a card randomly for drawing inspiration. I am hoping to work my way though the whole pile of them before I run out of steam. I like some decks better than others. This deck, The Transformational Tarot I like. I remember I used to look at it a lot back in the days of taking care of my mom. It is water stained and a little battered - I kept it in the master bathroom.

Today I am excited to be enameling again. Since my soldering torch is broken it gives me an opportunity to do something else. I was with Nancy yesterday and we talked about rainbows and what a wonderful symbol they are. I have 6 little rainbows started - I can imagine them paired with ceramic faces in pendants.
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12-1-16--rabbit-rabbit
It's the first of the month so it must be the day to draw Rabbit Rabbit.

12-1-16-seven-of-cups
Inspired by the Seven of Cups from the Voyager deck. Which was a pretty confusing looking card - I really couldn't even see anything except a jumble of textures so I made up most of this drawing. The Seven of Cups usually represents choices, confusing decisions, too much going on. I will have a busy day today - lots of driving of grandkids to school and music practice.

My torch gave out last night so till I get a new one not much jewelry making will be happening. Disappointing cause I have been very into it lately. I have been using the torch for a little over 20 years so I should be happy I guess that it lasted that long. It was a used one that I got from Dave when I first started fabrication.

wednesday

Nov. 30th, 2016 06:56 am
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11-30-16-queen-of-cups-bee-motif-prisma
Queen of Cups with a bee motif going on. She looks like a Disney character for some reason. I had already drawn the honey comb shapes before I drew her face from the card so I just incorporated the two things. That stuff in the upper left was a picture torn from an old National Geographic article about ancient gold jewelry. I gave her a bee brooch. Busy bees. How does that relate to me today? I have been keeping myself very busy lately - working in my room for long hours. I am meeting Cindy R for lunch today. She certainly is a creative person - I always hear about some new thing that I would like to try when I am around her. When I drew the honeycomb I chose to put bee larva in it instead of honey - little things waiting to be born.
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11-29-16-death-transformation
Drawing inspired by #13 Transformation in the Psychic Tarot deck. Normally in a regular tarot deck #13 would be Death (a skeleton in armor riding a horse with fallen people underfoot - a clergyman pleading with him). But I think this looks more like "Quelling Fears". I guess I have been having sleepless nights, feeling "not right", not knowing if I should do something and if I should, then what? If certain things do happen, will I be able to handle it?

This is not my favorite time of year. Darkness getting darker. The world getting colder. Stressed out thoughts of giving presents and will they be good enough?

I asked Rossy this morning what he thought of winter coming on and he said he was happy about it. There might be snow and days off from school and sled riding. Good for him.

Today is one of those dark drizzly days that we get a lot of around here. Maybe I should just go back to bed...
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11-28-16-Two-of-Cups
Two of Cups - drawing inspired by the Vision Quest Tarot deck. The little white book says this card means the harmonic convergence of male and female energies. Not sure how to relate to that today as this is the first day of buck season which means I won't see much of Dave for a while - he loves to hunt and will be gone most of the time till he gets one.

Candy and I took a bike ride on the trail that goes down the Allegheny from Belmar to Fisherman's Cove this morning. It was a little cold for a bike ride (below freezing) but it wasn't a good day to walk in the woods either cause the woods are crawling with hunters. Even staying on the bike path we saw 2 scared does running and 3 hunters. The weather called for overcast skies and no sun but I thought we might take that path anyway because if the sun did chance to shine we could get some of its light being on the north side of the river. And the sun did start to break through after we got going a few minutes. It was quite lovely. And warming. As we were nearing the car again clouds gathered and it turned dark. I said - thanks for the gift. Two photos. )

sunday

Nov. 27th, 2016 10:07 am
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11-27-16-3-of-pentacles
Three of Pentacles. In this version I drew this morning (I think) the worker looks suspicious of the 2 people hanging around over her. Which is how I feel when I have a commission - like the people might not like what I am doing and I'm not sure how to please them. I have been very happy with business since the kitchen mosaic was delivered and I have no more commissions to deal with. I didn't mentioned here how the delivery of the mosaic went cause I had no photo to accompany it. My customer wouldn't consent to me placing it in it's spot behind the stove and holding it there while I got a photo. She was afraid it would fall forward and harm her stove. I couldn't convince her otherwise even though I was sure it would be fine if she just held it there against the wall with her hand. Anyway - she really did like it a lot. She said that after the holidays she would invite me for lunch and I could get a photo of it after it was installed by her contractor.

This morning Dave left the gate open to the part of the house that has my studio room and our bedroom - a place that Andy is normally not allowed to go without supervision. I slept in this morning and was laying in bed reading when I saw Andy go into my studio, which is where the cats spend most all their time. But it was perfectly quiet this morning. Usually there is a lot of cat hissing when he goes in there. Dave went to check and found Andy just quietly laying on the floor with his head between his paws being a good boy. Gives me hope. This might all work out to be a friendly cat and dog family someday. Andy has a lot of trouble with other dogs though. He wants so badly to play with them and bothers them constantly - that is what he did with Chloe and Mike's dog Jackson on Friday. If we are in the car driving and he sees a dog walking on the sidewalk he is okay, but if our car comes to a stop he goes absolutely crazy trying to get to the dog, almost in an aggressive way. Something that needs worked on for sure.

Dave found a trail online this morning that looks like it would really be fun to hike. It's called the Fred Woods Trail. It is too late in the year to go now but next spring I really want to go. It is a 4.5 mile loop that other reviewers say has splendid views from a couple of vistas and travels through some unique rock formations. Can't wait.
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11-26-16-mouthful-of-snakes
This was inspired by an image in the New Orleans Voodoo Tarot deck. Its card had an angry sea monster devouring a mouthful of snakes. When I drew it though it became something more like a mother snake holding baby snakes - perhaps carrying them to safety. At least that is how I see it when I look at it now. I got myself worked into a bad mood last night and am looking for ways to see things more realistically today. So I welcome the idea of a higher, kinder level of thought taking control of lower versions of the same thing (petty negative thoughts) and taking them away.

What would having a mouthful of snakes feel like?

Anyway...
Here's a couple photos I took yesterday while Dave, Chloe, Mike and I were taking a walk in the woods. )
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11-22-16-angel-1
Angel watching over the world - choosing caterpillars to turn into butterflies. 2 more versions done with the Prisma app. )

Hazel and I drove to Clarion University last night to an Allies meeting - it was going to be our first one - but it was canceled. We found out later that the cancellation was announced on facebook a few minutes before the meeting was supposed to happen. Not much help to people like us driving an hour to get there who don't have data plans on our phones to get that kind of information. Oh well. Hazel and I had a good time anyway. Ate at Taco Bell and on the way home I chose music for us to listen to from my ipod. Hazel requested not to have songs about death (she knows me too well) so I searched through and found songs that skirted sad but still with a little touch of melancholy.

Today I'm going with Dave to see the eye specialist in Meadville about his macular degeneration - hopefully this time the appointment was actually made by Sears. Though now I'm wondering - usually a doctor's office calls you a day ahead of time to confirm that you know about the appointment. We never got a call like that. If Sears Optical messed this up again...

Happy birthday Chloe! When I was young they had a saying, don't trust anyone over 30. You only have one more year.

monday

Nov. 21st, 2016 07:11 am
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11-21-16-a-new-day-to-write-in
Nov 21, 2016 - a fresh new day to write in.

I changed over to burning birthday candles for my morning meditation - they burn for around 15 minutes so I am dedicated to staying at my writing table for periods at least that length. Today I burned 2. Lighting a candle keeps me at the table cause I wouldn't want to leave a lit candle unattended with Skye around. My problem is that I get so easily distracted. I need a block of time where I stay focused and this seems to be working.

We are having 13 people here for Thanksgiving. So I ended up writing about what I need to clean and what I need to cook. Hazel does my usual cleaning (sweeping, vacuuming and the bathroom) but there is some deep dusting, redding up and removal of junk that needs to take place that really only I can do. There are 3 vegans that need to be accommodated when I plan the food so no cream sauces, milk or cheese in a good part of the foods. Dave will make the turkey and stuffing for the meat eaters and I usually make the vegetables anyway so that isn't much different from past years. Three bean salad, sugar carrots, acorn squash, mashed potatoes, steamed fresh broccoli and waldorf salad.

What I really want to do right now is work on jewelry - not clean or cook. I hope I can fit some of that in in the next few days too.

The snow is holding on - still a white world out there but the roads are clear.
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...passing time at Hazel's school, waiting while she does a facial for Candy.
me-prisma
I'm in charge of watching over Candy's rings and purse. I'm using the LJ app to post this, which I never usually use. I hope the picture isn't too large (it was - changed it). The smell here is obnoxious. I guess it is the stuff they use on fingernails. I should have brought a book to pass time but thankfully there is wifi. And I have the "Flow" game on my ipod...

tuesday

Nov. 15th, 2016 08:42 am
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11-15-15-8-of-cups-3
Art-A-Day drawing of the 8 of Cups this morning. Leaving sorrow behind. In my version it looks like the person is trekking over icebergs in a frozen sea, though in the original it looked much more like rocks sticking up out of water. Time to leave coldness and isolation behind.

I really like how putting drawings through the Prisma app adds to and changes them. The one I used above is called "wave" - it's one of my favorites. 2 more versions done with Prisma HERE )

After being up for a few hours last evening I got back to sleep by midnight and slept good all night - which was surprising. I must have been very tired. I had some interesting dreams about addictions and peopled with persons I know with addictive personalities. I see them as a warning to myself - as I also have an addictive personality. In one I had to go to the restroom and she did also. I see going to the bathroom in dreams as getting rid of excess emotions. She went into one room and shut the door and I went into the other. I took the key from the door, left the door open and laid the key on the floor when I went back to the toilet. Since the door was open the cleaning crew thought they could come in and did. They were chiding me about losing the key but I said I didn't lose it - I knew right were it was and picked it up to show them. So I see this as a positive dream. I haven't lost the key to a sober/abstinent life. I only laid it down for a time.

Dave and I were talking about the birds we see at the bird feeder and I said I just don't see chickadees or blue jays anymore. He said that Niles virus has killed a lot of birds and I was sad. So then this morning I made a point of seeing exactly who was visiting the feeders and the first thing this morning there was a little flock of chickadees and then we were visited by 3 blue jays! So maybe it was just over the summer we didn't see those birds much and now that winter is coming on they are back to the feeder. I haven't been paying much attention to the feeder - it's just there and I keep it filled with sunflower seeds but I will watch it better now.

sunday

Nov. 13th, 2016 07:22 am
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11-13-16-the-girl-with-7-stars-on-her-head
Art a day - just drawing a face.

I started this by drawing the mouth first, moved up to the nose, then the eye on the right and lastly the eye on the left. The first parts of her face are not so good but each element gets better as I go along (in my opinion) till finally it is saved by the decent eye. She looks sad, that's for sure. The original art that I was inspired by was a tarot card of The Empress but I didn't redraw it - just drew a face after seeing that face. The stars I thought to put on her head seemed to say something more - something from a higher level about her. She is working towards good. I made her hair short so she is just a girl - maybe a tom boy. But then I added some of my own jewelry to her neck - made her be me. I guess the main feeling I have right now is sadness. Don't want to go into all that right now though (some of it is repeat stuff - some of it is new but it can not be resolved anyway). Don't want to talk about it. I just need to feel it for a while I guess.

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Good news - I heard back (finally!) from my mosaic customer and she would like to have me deliver it after the weekend. I will get paid for it and can move on with other things in that basement space.

I found a pair of just plain old reading glasses (+3.00) last night so I can read comfortably again. I went to bed early (7) and read till 8 and then went to sleep. Hard to believe I am going to bed so early. I got up at 4 this morning. This early darkness stuff just makes me bored in the evenings. But maybe since I found these reading glasses I can work on jewelry again. That would fill time better than watching TV. I should get my re-made glasses (hopefully they will be right) later this week.

A very frosty morning - it's supposed to turn into sunny day in the low 50's. If I get my wish I'd like Dave and I to take Andy for a woods walk somewhere today.

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