my day (s)

Apr. 13th, 2015 10:24 pm
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Yesterday was a strange day - spent most all of it alone. Many days like that when I am alone I get a lot done in my studio but I was very lazy yesterday. Wanted to DO something but nothing seemed right to do. I went outside for while and sat on a chair in the shade (it was a beautiful spring day). I saw some birds circling very high up but couldn't tell what they were. I went back in the house and got a pair of binoculars and found out that they were ordinary vultures, not the bald eagles I thought they might be. We have a pair of bald eagles nesting about 1/4 mile from here. I painted a little self portrait picture while outside in my self-portrait book. After coming inside I filled the dishwasher - the only productive thing I did all day. In the afternoon I watched The Theory of Everything, twice. Around 9 pm I became sure I was nauseated and started waiting to throw up. It took so long to build up to the throwing up part. Waiting and waiting, hoping and hoping. Around 10 I did throw up - thought that might be it but then I threw up 2 more times before midnight. Such a relief to be able to go to sleep finally. Dave come home late - he was fishing with his brother Bruce.

Woke up this morning with very sore ribs from the retching. I have no idea if it was something I ate or what caused the sickness last night. Hiked on Oak Hill this morning with Candi - took it slow and it was good. Came home, had a quick lunch then Candi came over to buy a piece of jewelry for her daughter-in-law Mara.

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Hipstamatic picture of the Allegheny River from a bench Gabe and I were sitting on.

After Jules got home from work he and his kids and I all went biking - this time from Franklin to the Belmar Bridge. Coming back you could see a very dark storm (which we had no idea was coming before) approaching from the west - blowing cold air in our face. It was like a big race to get back before it struck. Exciting. And we did get the bikes all loaded just in time before big fat drops of rain started to fall. Hovis Ice Cream has opened up for the season and we went there for our usual after-biking ice cream cone, standing under the awning in the rain to order. They have the best in Franklin, really.

When I was taking my shower tonight I found a tick on my leg - probably picked it up on Oak Hill this morning.
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my cafe table art center - Oo-tapo in the background sleeping in the chair

I got in the habit of doing art first thing in the morning when I was at Kathy's and I want to keep it up now that I am home again. I got an idea to do a little painting showing our gray world, but with the roots of spring below the ground.

Most the time I never know what to eat. As a compulsive eater I could (and used to) think about food all the time, what I would eat next, what I would cook or bake or get next. Now I am very much on guard against that type of thinking. Now I err on the side of not planning or thinking about food enough. I just eat what I can find. This morning I found a bag of peanuts in shells. I need to make a shopping list of healthy foods to have here so I can keep up not thinking about food and still have good food to eat. Peanuts aren't that bad but I need more.

I decided to get all the Soulcard cards. The second deck arrived while I was gone.

Woke up with a sore throat and laryngitis this morning.

Oh no! Just discovered that we forgot to go to the appointment with our tax lady - have to get going...

wednesday

Apr. 1st, 2015 09:12 am
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I've been so busy journaling about all the good things during this visit I haven't mentioned the fact that I have come down with a terrible cold. Last night it got even worse and felt like everything in my head ached, even my teeth. This morning it seems to have moved down into my chest. So tired. We will be leaving for the airport around 3 today and I really can't think of anything I want to do till then except rest. I feel bad that I will be on the plane spreading germs but my plan is to use hand cleaner and keep a napkin for coughing so hopefully my germs will be contained.

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This is Ernie The Egret. A very tame bird that hangs around Kathy and Pete's house. He was here this morning as Kathy and I sat outside. He was only about 5' away from me.
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1. Tiny leaves - a maple tree in the yard this morning - noticed it as I was walking back from Rossy's bus stop.

2. The hummingbirds are back. I didn't see one but I heard one while I was sitting on the back porch last night and immediately went in to make sugar water to fill the feeders. This morning I saw the first one drinking from the feeder.

3. Feeling sick (with a cold maybe - slight sore throat). Tired. I slept all afternoon yesterday. This morning I went back to bed after getting the boys off to school and slept all morning - just now got up.

4. I see I may have been way too ambitious thinking I could find 10 things to write about.

5. I have been listening to lots of hypnosis cd's lately. I feel like I am building up a bank account of latent psychic energy with them. Some have to do with weight loss, eating better, or exercise, or self esteem, positive thinking, having gratitude, joyful living. I really do believe that this kind of hypnosis is helpful. They can't do anything if you don't wish this for yourself originally but they can give a person a push in the right direction. I credit the fact that recently I even went down to the basement to work cause I was listening to one called "clean your house" the week before.

6. We need a screen door for the front door. When we put on the new door last fall the old screen door was trash. We need some air flow in this house with summer coming on. So that's my new campaign - screen door, screen door.

7. Dave definitely doesn't like Hannibal, though I am finding it interesting and watchable. Even though it is "horror" I can know in my mind that it is "made up" and I'm OK with it. Right now I am getting very worried for Will - he has some kind of brain infection and the only person that can help him get proper treatment for it is Hannibal - and he doesn't want it treated - yet. I plan to finish watching the first season (the last disc will arrive tomorrow) but will probably not get the 2nd season when it comes out on DVD. Dave likes comedy better and I like comedy too - something we both agree on and that's what this evening TV watching time together is all about. Northern Exposure is the show for us right now. And thankfully there is a lot of it to catch up on. Bored to Death is good too but we are just about done with those. Any recommendations for good comedy series?

8. You can almost watch the leaves growing on the trees with your naked eye. Every few minutes when I look out the front window the leaves are bigger on the maple trees.

9. Going to be driving in town soon (after lunch) with Johnny so he can get another application for summer work.

10. Gabe will be going to the junior/senior prom this weekend. He is only a sophomore but he has been invited by a senior girl. He hangs out with a group of kids at school and they will all be together as a group while at the prom which I think is a good way to go. I have been happy to have been involved with taking him to get him measured for the tux and picking it out with him and helping him order the corsage. He is a clothes horse and loves his tux - we picked it up last night.

ecch!

Jan. 6th, 2014 10:57 am
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yech
Today's page in the Everything Book.

The kids had a 2 hour delay this morning. Snowing pretty good right now, which started right after they left. I have to drive to the vet's office and get more meds for Oo-tapo today - wish I didn't. The roads are slick.

Yesterday I designed a new ring and a pendant that have a free moving copper ball inside them under a magnifying clear cover. I think they are going to be pretty neat - that's what my mind is full of right now - getting them finished and then listing them later today. Still sick (sicker) with the cold. Just going to take it easy as much as possible and do what I can.
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Yesterday with the cold making the world so crisp the sun sparkles in the snow were really pretty (soft focus optic on the lensbaby).

Didn't get much done in the basement yesterday though I did get through 2 small boxes. Very tired with this cold and laid down a few times. Jules' water lines in the laundry room froze from the low temps the night before and Dave was over there helping him get it going yesterday. It's not so cold today - weatherman says it's going to go up to 30F later.

friday

Jan. 3rd, 2014 07:53 am
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Kathy [livejournal.com profile] earthmother45 sent me 3 glass ornaments yesterday - this yellow dragonfly was my favorite!

This morning it is 1F outside. The snow seems to be over for now and some blue sky is showing. We didn't get that much snow - only about 5 inches. I'm going to make sure the birdfeeders have seed in them. The kids have a 2 hour school delay and their dad is off so we haven't seen them yet. That makes for a relaxing start to the day. Dave and I have decided to work together on the basement today (his idea) - which is very good - I will probably actually get down there then. My biggest hope is to get the piano moved to the outer door area (then I can list it on Craig's List or something), take a loveseat, coffee table and some lamps over to Jules' house and move a big stack of sycamore wood out of what will eventually be Chloe and Mike's area.

Forgot to mention - I thought I was getting a cold the last few days - minor sore throat - but today I am sure of it. Very tired. I may go back to bed a get a little nap till Dave is ready to start...
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Still snowing - and not warm wet snow either - it's cold and bone chilling with wind. I can't get warm. At the moment I am heating up the corn bag and going to go to bed with it. And so much for my tiredness being over - it's not. I was yawning all morning. I've been in bed for an hour and slept but still can't get warm. So I'm writing this now while the bag is heating in the microwave then I'm going to climb back in bed with it and a movie. If I want, I can go back to sleep or watch the movie - either way at least I hope to get warm. Maybe I'm coming down with something. Sebby didn't go to school today - was throwing up this morning - he's better now though.

my day

Jan. 20th, 2013 07:43 pm
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Well, I thought there would be a lot more to my day but there wasn't. After I wrote that this morning the sun went away, it was too cold to want to walk - I got very tired and slept most all day. I think I am coming down with something. Rossy is here keeping me company and playing with the ipod - that has been the highlight of my day - studio pic today:

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Jan. 2nd, 2013 09:13 am
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As a part of my new interest and involvement in my studio (hopefully every day now) I want to start posting a photo-a-day of just things in my studio. The above is a page from my design book. The very first object I made back when I was taking a beginners class in fabrication in 1995 was to make a pendant that was very similar to this one but without any stones - it was only the snake done in copper with a rectangular border around it. So the Great Serpent Mound has a special meaning to me and I think it would make a fitting symbol for the beginning of this new year (phase of my life) for me.

Today will be another Pajama Day for me - yay! Still sick with this cold but staying in PJs makes me feel good.
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"Thaw" pendant - sterling, white boulder opal, white cz, white mother of pearl and white moonstone. Listing HERE

I had quite a nice day today in spite of feeling sick with this cold. Just puttered all day - laid down a few times to rest. I made this pendant and did some enameling too. Dave and Johnny took the grandboys to the First Night fireworks in Oil City tonight. I thought I might go too but as the time to leave approached it felt like a relief to stay at home instead. I stayed in flannel PJ's all day with a quilted vest over top - my favorite outfit now if I can get away with it.

New Years Eve. A time to sum up the last year and think about hopes for the new year. The biggest 2 things that happened last year were holding a party for mom to celebrate her 100 birthday and then 6 months later helping her leave this earth. I'm still getting over that - changing my mode of life from a caregiver to what? I am enjoying more time to work with my jewelry and feeling more like a real "artist" (artisan?). But there are adjustments to figure out - how long to work each day, how to be disciplined without being obsessed, how much do I need this to be about making money and how much do I want it be about the joy of creation? This coming spring we will be moving out of mom's house and Jules and his boys will be buying it and moving in. Dave and I will move back into our old house next door. I have big plans to fix it up the way I want. Painting the rooms colors that I like (when we moved into it 13 years ago we painted everything bland white just to move in faster), doing things to the yard - moving some of the plants from here to there since Jules wants no plants to tend. Getting rid of lots of STUFF and organizing what I have better. I will turn 60 this coming year. I feel like this is a milestone, more so than any other age I have come to so far. I don't feel old - I feel strong actually but I feel like I have to admit that my time on earth is limited and becoming more limited all the time. I don't want to waste any more of it. I need to give up thinking that all the stuff I used to think I would get around to doing will get done - it won't. I need to clear the clutter of dead dreams out of my life. For once I feel like I am stepping through a new doorway this new year.

saturday

Jun. 9th, 2012 04:42 pm
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laying in bed this is what i see

Woke up with cramps this morning and went to the bathroom with diarrhea numerous times then thought it was over so I went to the OA meeting. We went to our lunch afterwards but the cramps came back and I went home early to go to bed. Was laying around in bed (waiting for the next bathroom call) and I finished watching the end of a film Dave and I started to watch night before last. It was called "Roads to Koktebel" - a Russian film. Netflix describes it as a contemplative drama. That's probably a pretty good way to describe it. I loved it. Someone else with less patience might not.

Mom seems to have been sick with this same diarrhea this morning too - Jill is here and taking care of her. But it sounds like she is better now too. Good.

tail

May. 21st, 2012 07:58 pm
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Wasn't sure I would even have enough energy to post something on here today but decided I would at least do it for the OPADI. Anyway - quickly, mom isn't any better but the doctor ordered antibiotics and hopefully we will have a visiting nurse come tomorrow to check her - get a better opinion of what is going on. I'm sick too - though I did walk this morning with Berdella at the lake and enjoyed it immensely. But by the time I got home after doing errands I was exhausted. Just trying to take care of mom and myself.
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manikins

Well, I haven't made much progress on my "i am the one who..." art project other than thinking a lot about it and how I want to do it - and I can't decide how. I did make some progress in jewelry today though and made bezels for stones that will be in 2 new necklaces. Mom still has quite a raspy cough but it seems to be only in her throat, not any deeper. And I have developed my own cough/throat tickle - maybe there really is something around here causing allergies right now. But I never had allergies before. Neither did mom. So I don't know...


(there is a hole in the wall behind them for the cats to go in and out)

doggy

Apr. 28th, 2012 09:58 pm
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cute doggy

This is a poster that mom bought 35 years ago because it reminded her of a little dog we had then named Meeko. The poster has been on this wall, in this particular spot of her bedroom, since November 1998 (I know this because there is a calender hanging on the nail under it with that date).

I woke up this morning with another bout of the pain in the gut - probably diverticulitis. So I put myself on a liquid diet again. Things are better - but I am so hungry! Making pealed boiled potatoes in veggie broth right now - hope that goes through ok.

The new tracfone arrived and I transferred service over to it this evening - now to transfer my contact list into it - time consuming...

monday

Apr. 2nd, 2012 07:09 pm
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I've been on my clear liquid diet for 30 hours now - my gut is much better, but I am so hungry!!! Though I'm waiting till I have no unpleasant sensations at all coming from my innards before I start back to real food again - hoping that will be tomorrow.

Visited with Cindy R again today - so good to be able to talk on the level that we do about hopes and dreams, dealing with death, relationships and art, art, art. It was after visiting with her last time that my desire to plein air paint was awakened again. She has the cutest little 6" x 8" guerrilla thumbox paintbox and she's making me (she's making me?) want one. I am resisting though - going to give my old box a go a few more times before I succumb to the "guerrilla painter" style of box. I think this is the one I would get if I got one.


here's my present oil paint box - which seemed very adequate till I saw her guerrilla thumbox!

Took some photos at the heron nests on the way to Cindy's - here is the best one where I think you can see a baby in the nest with the 2 parents standing watch over it.

monday

Apr. 2nd, 2012 07:09 pm
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I've been on my clear liquid diet for 30 hours now - my gut is much better, but I am so hungry!!! Though I'm waiting till I have no unpleasant sensations at all coming from my innards before I start back to real food again - hoping that will be tomorrow.

Visited with Cindy R again today - so good to be able to talk on the level that we do about hopes and dreams, dealing with death, relationships and art, art, art. It was after visiting with her last time that my desire to plein air paint was awakened again. She has the cutest little 6" x 8" guerrilla thumbox paintbox and she's making me (she's making me?) want one. I am resisting though - going to give my old box a go a few more times before I succumb to the "guerrilla painter" style of box. I think this is the one I would get if I got one.


here's my present oil paint box - which seemed very adequate till I saw her guerrilla thumbox!

Took some photos at the heron nests on the way to Cindy's - here is the best one where I think you can see a baby in the nest with the 2 parents standing watch over it.

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I want to go to the Faroe Islands.
I went on an amazon spending spree after Tenzing's death - I think to fill the hole in my heart. But of course it doesn't - just a distraction. Anyway now I have lots of new books and music to listen to:
Bob Dylan - Oh Mercy
A Badly Drawn Boy - Original Soundtrack from the movie About a Boy
Marianne Williamson - A Return to Love
Spruill and Watson - Feng Shui with What You Have
Leo Tolstoy - Anna Karenina
Outsider Art Sourcebook
Aboriginal Art (World of Art)
Charles Bukowski - Run with the Hunted
Jack Kerouac - Wake Up
Some of you on my friends list may remember yourselves mentioning some of these books or music lately - which is what got me started in wanting them too.
I want to oil paint again - outdoors - but will have to wait till better weather. I see myself going out with a folding lawn chair and setting up down back somewhere.
I want so much to heal a relationship in my life - need to practice a constant forgiving attitude even as I hold my ground against abuse that may come my way. Thinking of miracles of forgiveness and letting go of the past. Need to Let Go Of The Past. If I truly forgive it will not exist anymore.
Going to plant the sweet williams I had in pots last year (they were way too crowded and didn't do well) - I have the spot picked out now. Also need to plant the shasta daisies that were in pots from last year and the silver dollar plants.
Listening to Oh Mercy right now - love it.
Waiting for mom to finish her hot coco - wish she would just DRINK it and get done so I could give her her bath. Sometimes she takes so long - it is so tiresome. But she needs that hot coco cause it has her laxative in it. One of the worst problems that elders have is with their bowels and moving them. I know, ...TMI.
I have a pain in my own bowels lately - probably a spat of diverticulitis. It feels like I have a big painful mass of jelly in my guts that hurts when I move, and when I don't move. Maybe I need to eat softer for a while - no nuts or other hard to digest things. More liquid, more water. I'm having so many aches and pains right now - a crick in my neck and an all day headache behind my eyes yesterday (not there today thank goodness). I am a person who seems to have a pain somewhere in my body, constantly - the pain changes where it is and what it is, but it is a constant thing. I call it my traveling pain (a name I think I got from my sister as she has them too - our mom had them). Lower back pain, open places on my thumbs or fingers, middle back pain, hip pain, chest pain, foot pain. Geez. The fact that they are in a new place everyday makes me not take any of them seriously. Basically I think I truly am a healthy person - it's just physical pains that are trying to get my attention to distract me from mental pain. I need to feel my feelings and let them go.


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OK - need to get off here and get on with mom's bath even if she isn't done drinking - the day has to go on...
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I want to go to the Faroe Islands.
I went on an amazon spending spree after Tenzing's death - I think to fill the hole in my heart. But of course it doesn't - just a distraction. Anyway now I have lots of new books and music to listen to:
Bob Dylan - Oh Mercy
A Badly Drawn Boy - Original Soundtrack from the movie About a Boy
Marianne Williamson - A Return to Love
Spruill and Watson - Feng Shui with What You Have
Leo Tolstoy - Anna Karenina
Outsider Art Sourcebook
Aboriginal Art (World of Art)
Charles Bukowski - Run with the Hunted
Jack Kerouac - Wake Up
Some of you on my friends list may remember yourselves mentioning some of these books or music lately - which is what got me started in wanting them too.
I want to oil paint again - outdoors - but will have to wait till better weather. I see myself going out with a folding lawn chair and setting up down back somewhere.
I want so much to heal a relationship in my life - need to practice a constant forgiving attitude even as I hold my ground against abuse that may come my way. Thinking of miracles of forgiveness and letting go of the past. Need to Let Go Of The Past. If I truly forgive it will not exist anymore.
Going to plant the sweet williams I had in pots last year (they were way too crowded and didn't do well) - I have the spot picked out now. Also need to plant the shasta daisies that were in pots from last year and the silver dollar plants.
Listening to Oh Mercy right now - love it.
Waiting for mom to finish her hot coco - wish she would just DRINK it and get done so I could give her her bath. Sometimes she takes so long - it is so tiresome. But she needs that hot coco cause it has her laxative in it. One of the worst problems that elders have is with their bowels and moving them. I know, ...TMI.
I have a pain in my own bowels lately - probably a spat of diverticulitis. It feels like I have a big painful mass of jelly in my guts that hurts when I move, and when I don't move. Maybe I need to eat softer for a while - no nuts or other hard to digest things. More liquid, more water. I'm having so many aches and pains right now - a crick in my neck and an all day headache behind my eyes yesterday (not there today thank goodness). I am a person who seems to have a pain somewhere in my body, constantly - the pain changes where it is and what it is, but it is a constant thing. I call it my traveling pain (a name I think I got from my sister as she has them too - our mom had them). Lower back pain, open places on my thumbs or fingers, middle back pain, hip pain, chest pain, foot pain. Geez. The fact that they are in a new place everyday makes me not take any of them seriously. Basically I think I truly am a healthy person - it's just physical pains that are trying to get my attention to distract me from mental pain. I need to feel my feelings and let them go.


pains

OK - need to get off here and get on with mom's bath even if she isn't done drinking - the day has to go on...
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Raining so hard this morning. The giant puddle is back in the area on the other side of the driveway. Both Dave and I came down with the same kind of cold last night - thick stuffy nose and so tired and achy. I couldn't wait till the kids got off to school this morning so I could go back to bed. But once in bed I tossed and turned and sniffed and thrashed my legs. Baa - so I got up and here I am. Next I think I will search through the medicine chest for something good. I go to pick up Kathy from the Pittsburgh airport late tonight. I feel so bad that she will be coming into a germ zone. There is still cleaning to be done in the kitchen for Mom's party on Saturday but I'm not going to worry about it unless I start to feel better. I want to get over this cold as fast as possible and I hope rest will help. I probably got sick cause I'm stressed - no need to keep stressing!

I was at the vets yesterday picking up meds for Oo-tapo and saw a medicated shampoo that they had for sale ($20 a bottle - it ought to be good!) - thought it might help Tenzing's skin. With his old age and cancer he has many scaly spots. So I gave him a bath last night with it. He hates baths and howled and howled and shivered till he had something like a seizure and fell over. I pulled his head up to the shallow end and finished the bath and took him out and laid him on a towel and dried him off. Half way through the drying he woke up and seemed fine. And he slept well last night. His skin seems better, smoother today. So I'm going to keep up with the baths every few days - I just dread the howling and collapsing!

Yesterday I had women's writers group here and had the furniture set up with the couch and daybed facing each other. It seemed so crowded and awkward. After everyone left I moved the furniture around again and came up with a way better layout. I put the couch and daybed in an L and used the other small chairs to fill in the open area. I love it so much better! We will need something different when Chloe moves back home in May but till then I think this will be the best.

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